Every year that passes seems to come and go faster than the previous year... except well, maybe this year.
It's been a crazy year hasn't it?
It's also been a sad year, a confusing and messy year, a scary year, a painful year, an anxious year, but on the other end (the positive, fluffy, pretty, warm and sunny end) it actually hasn't entirely been a failure of a year. Thank goodness!
I'm still alive and so are you if you're reading this. That's a huge blessing to be grateful for, so - let's give thanks.
I thankful for God, the universe and mother earth. I'm thankful for my husband, family and close friends. I'm thankful for my invisible, yet very loud spirit guides. I'm thankful for my dog and my work, and of all the wonderful women I've come across on my path so far. I'm thankful for them and also thankful for those that I will soon encounter too. I give thanks for all of it. I give thanks everyday. Why?
All of these: people, places and things make up my purpose and fulfill my life. That's why.
This year has also been a year of growth, challenge, of putting myself "out there" and making mistakes.
And, I've learned through each step along the way. It's been a year of working all hours of the night to submit something because I promised myself I would.
I know the pain of letting myself down. I know it because I did it year after year, and it's awful. I'm not doing that anymore. I sincerely hope you won't either. Let this be the year or the decade you put yourself first and make those dreams come true.
Sure, I'd be lying if I said it hasn't also been a year of hoping things would turn out a certain way, ie: like getting married in Italy to my husband, surrounded by everyone we love... and also being forced to be okay with not having had that been a reality. I'm grateful I'm still with the man I love, regardless of not having had all the rest. Life is tricky and never goes the exact way you imagined it to go, but I haven't lost hope that things will improve.
If today is a hard day for you, please know that tomorrow has the potential to be so much better. You have the potential to be, do and feel better. You have the potential to create more of what you want and less of what you don't. It is possible. Take a chance on yourself. What is it that you said you wanted to do but still haven't done?
For me, it was continuing my education. Yes I already have my BA and MA, along with a ton of other certifications, but I wanted to grow more, to stretch more and to fill myself with more knowledge and understanding so that's exactly what I did. Yes, many years later than I had imagined I would, but yes. I did it and so can you.
I applied, I expressed my desire to continue growing mentally, spiritually, emotionally, and professionally. I got accepted into a PhD program and I started it today: 10/20/2020.
Don't ever let your past or your current situation stop you from believing that you can't do what you deeply desire to do. There is always a way. I'm not more special, talented or smarter that you. I'm just a regular girl following her heart and doing what sets her soul alive.
Remember, it's never ever too late to be who you've always wanted to be.
Love and blessings,
